Friday, February 03, 2012

What Do You Do

What do you do? Just... When everything you had is taken away from you, and there's noone there to help you deal with the pain... What do you do? When you live in so much pain with your heart feeling like it's in a couple thousand pieces... And with each beat it seems as if the hope of it ever healing is getting farther and farther away. What do you do when you wake up one morning and you eventually notice the lack of pain... In it's place is nothing. There's no leftover want to cry any more and there's no hurt with every heart beat. Regardless, there's still no happiness. It's kinda like there's a black hole instead. It's kind of nice actually... Would you treat it as a little vacation? What would you do... After months of moving on and thoughts of, well, not him... What would you do if he crossed your mind? If love for him came back in such a burst of passion it brings you down to your knees and makes you cry. Like ripping a scar off for it's healed all mishapen. What do you do with that love, that pain? Do you attempt bury it away again? Do you act on your impulse to talk to him and try to old it right? What do you do?!? Do you listen to your heart and try again? Do you dwell on what could never be? Do you timidly say hello and hope something happens or do you come right out and tell it to him straight? Do you fight the facts that the head is trying to use to reason with your heart? Or do you force yourself to sleep in hopes you wake up and forget this bad bad dream? Is the hurt going to go away faster by ignorance or confertation? What do you do what do you do what do you do what do you do what do you do what do you do what do you do what do you do what do you do what do you do what do you do what do you do what do you do what do you do what do you do what do you do what do you do what do you do what do you do what do you do what do you do what do you do what do you do what do you do what do you do what do you do what do you do what do you do what do you do

2 comments:

  1. ...you pray, and focus on thinking only of things that you can do something about. If you can't change something - you let it leave your mind. And you remind yourself of everything good that you can possibly think of!

    PS. I don't know you, but God does, and I know He must love you! :) I'll pray for you tonight that you come up with a good long list of happy things to be thankful for and to occupy your mind. I read some other blog posts of yours and is seems you have a tough time sleeping. I have heard that some people when they can't sleep, count their blessings instead of counting sheep. :D Maybe this list can help you with getting to sleep by calming your racing mind. You be sure and let me know how it works for you, OK?
    A fellow blogger...
    Corine :D

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  2. Tonight I really will make a list of things I'm grateful for, and of all the things He has blessed me with. I'm not very religious, but there are things that I know only He could have done. Thank you so much for thinking of me and for the big heart I can see you have. (:

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